This year, I am living in a student residence in Murcia and there, I met a boy who is from the same town as me. I didn't know everything was going to be so quick when you live with somebody.
When I was by his side I felt like no one else was around but us,
like there weren't any problems in my life.I was happy, so much happy, much more happy than I had never been before. He made me smile at least 200 times a day and I was a little bit blind because I just felt happy but I hadn't realised I was falling in love and that I loved him much more than he loved me.
Most of people told me he wasn't kind to me, that he was always jocking with other girls as he used to do with me.
The thing is that it was true and I started to realise I wasn't the only one for him but even so, I still though he may love me as I did.
It was getting so hard for me to see the way he started to look a girl who live in the student residence and I decided to tell him that I didn't wanted to continue our relationship, not because I didn't love him but because I wasn't feeling good.
Some days after it happened, he decided to talk to me and he told me he couldn't be without me, that he missed me more than he thought he was going to miss me, and we decided to try again in order to see if we were going to be able to be in a nice way together but the thing is that if you say someone to try again, you are supposed to change the things you did wrong before. Well, he continued in the same way: jocking with other girls, talking and flirting with the girl I mentioned before and I continued feeling bad.
So, as I was angry and upset I made a great mistake that made me lose him, I don't know if that was for good or for bad, but what I know is that it wasn't the better way to end.
Everybody in the student residence told me he was feeling bad for me, but I don't think he wasn't feeling as bad as I was feeling during the relationship and as bad as I am feeling right now.
I went to talk to him after all of this happened, and I asked him for forgiveness at least 8 times, I asked him to be friends but he didn't wanted to, at least for the moment. I understood.
What I don't understad is why he show me one part of him and he show another one to the rest of the people because with me he's so cute and he show me that he loves me (when I went to talk to him he was almost crying. Obviously, I broke down in tears) and when he's with other people it is like he is OK. Well, the thing is that last night, I saw him with the other girl talking and flirting for at least two hours and I couldn't understand what was happening, I still don't know, because she's supposed to have a boyfriend and he's supposed to love me but that's not what I'm seeing. I'm just getting a little bit obsessed, I think. And that isn't good for me at all. I must forget him but it is going to be so difficult for me.
Most of people told me he wasn't kind to me, that he was always jocking with other girls as he used to do with me.
The thing is that it was true and I started to realise I wasn't the only one for him but even so, I still though he may love me as I did.
It was getting so hard for me to see the way he started to look a girl who live in the student residence and I decided to tell him that I didn't wanted to continue our relationship, not because I didn't love him but because I wasn't feeling good.
Some days after it happened, he decided to talk to me and he told me he couldn't be without me, that he missed me more than he thought he was going to miss me, and we decided to try again in order to see if we were going to be able to be in a nice way together but the thing is that if you say someone to try again, you are supposed to change the things you did wrong before. Well, he continued in the same way: jocking with other girls, talking and flirting with the girl I mentioned before and I continued feeling bad.
So, as I was angry and upset I made a great mistake that made me lose him, I don't know if that was for good or for bad, but what I know is that it wasn't the better way to end.
Everybody in the student residence told me he was feeling bad for me, but I don't think he wasn't feeling as bad as I was feeling during the relationship and as bad as I am feeling right now.
I went to talk to him after all of this happened, and I asked him for forgiveness at least 8 times, I asked him to be friends but he didn't wanted to, at least for the moment. I understood.
What I don't understad is why he show me one part of him and he show another one to the rest of the people because with me he's so cute and he show me that he loves me (when I went to talk to him he was almost crying. Obviously, I broke down in tears) and when he's with other people it is like he is OK. Well, the thing is that last night, I saw him with the other girl talking and flirting for at least two hours and I couldn't understand what was happening, I still don't know, because she's supposed to have a boyfriend and he's supposed to love me but that's not what I'm seeing. I'm just getting a little bit obsessed, I think. And that isn't good for me at all. I must forget him but it is going to be so difficult for me.
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